I hope u baca with hati yang tenang..
Today was so sad because today is the day that im not with you anymore..if i could tell u how much i syg u..
Today i woke up early in the morning because i could not sleep and im so weak.I smpi office at 9.24..i had a meeting in the morning but i could focus because i think about u ..im sorry for that.that is the thing that i could do..ok then i went to solat jummat as usual.I doakan kan yang kita ada jodoh dan diterima oleh keluarga masing2...insyaAllah Allah dapat mendengar rintihan hati i..insyaAllah..
After that office i ada buat makan2 sempena raya and ramai tanya i kenapa i lain..muka i tidak ceria sepertimana die orang kenal i..derang tanya .."kenapa muka kau mcm bini ko mati ke"..i have to do lots of fake smile but that is not good enough..kadang2 i termenung byk kali..ramai noticed..but dont worry..itu semua salah i..i berhak jadi mcm itu..Even Saifuddin asked me "are u okay bro?" ..i could only smile..
After the makan2 thingy,i balek lmbt sbb i just dont know what to do anymore..i want to see u but i know u hate to see me and u dont want to see me at all..
Bila i nak berangkat pulang..Saifuddin called me and he said that.."Bro,they want u for MAMPU project"..then he explained everything..so guess what..i have to based there for further noticed..Im happy sbb kira i'll be the one pioneer dalam project tu..but deep inside my heart..i dont know what to do..
Remember this picture? :) We were on the way from MPSEPANG (2008/2009)
i nak tido dah...i tak berapa sihat dan i sangat down and i sgt serabut..i baru makan ubat..i deserved this all..
Take Care Ike,
Carzuya
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